"Joy comes as we recognize that we can communicate with our Heavenly Father through prayer and that those prayers will be heard and answered—perhaps not how and when we expected they would be answered, but they will be answered and by a Heavenly Father who knows and loves us perfectly and who desires our happiness" Pres. Monson
This week I am teaching a lesson on the spiritual promptings we get to follow and how to recognize the spiritual promptings from our Heavenly Father. Thinking back to my life and the spiritual promptings that I have received, I feel so blessed to have the Holy Ghost in my life. There has been several promptings that I am thankful for that I decided to follow them. They have been the guide and turning point of my testimony and my life. The first one was the prompting that I needed to serve a mission. That was such a hard thing for me to follow due to the fact that I just finished waiting for my missionary. I desperately wanted to stay and get married, but Heavenly Father had a different plan for me. Going on my mission not only helped others find the gospel of Jesus Christ, but it is one of the foundations of my testimony. All the experiences, people, and trials I had as a missionary I would never take back. I needed to experience love, lost, and triumph as a missionary to be able to lean on my Heavenly Father throughout my life.
The second prompting that changed my life was the crazy idea of transferring all my college credits to BYU Idaho. It didn't make sense because I lost over half of the credit I worked so hard to get. But Once again, Heavenly Father knows best. I would have never found my Fabulous Parker. I know it was a short visit to Rexburg, but with only one semester there I found the love of my life and I once again would never have changed that experience for anything.
The latest big prompting Parker and I both received was Ryker and not getting a breathing tube in his neck. I was told over and over again that he needed it, but blessing after blessing, prayer after prayer I was told not to do it. That he will overcome this. After almost years of waiting, praying, and having faith that was we were following was the spirit, Ryker has had a miracle recovery. He is tube free 100%. Another life changing experience. It has made my testimony grow so much. I have a stronger Faith. More hope. And a unwavering testimony of the love of my Heavenly Father and miracles if I pray and have faith really do happen.
We have had many other crazy promptings from the spirit and we try really hard to follow them. There are times I have found myself I don't. Those times I feel the lack of the spirit in my life. The more I follow the spirit the better my life is and my testimony always grows deeper and stronger.
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Saturday, May 21, 2016
Take a look at May 2016
We kicked started May off with a great Mother's day celebration. We had a little get together with the Allen Clan at my house this year. Parker got a new BBQ grill for a late birthday present and wanted to show it off. So we grilled up some burgers and enjoyed each others company. We also celebrated mother's day with my family by doing yard work for my mom. That's really all she wants is to make her yard beautiful. Speaking of yards, Parker and I have been working really hard to get our front and backyard clean up and weed free. It's hard work and it's been getting really hot the last couple of weeks. But I am loving all the compliments for all our neighbors. We still have a lot of work to do in our backyard, but it will look so great after it's all done. I am starting to get the green thumb my mom has. I am loving having flowers in my gardens and seeing all the beautiful colors makes me smile. I am loving it! We have also be redecorating our home. We finished painting the kitchen cabinets and painted accent walls and the bathrooms. It looks fabulous! It really gives our house a personality. I am loving the look of our house. It's great!
May also was a month of firsts for Ryker man. He got to take a trip in the RzR for the first time. He was a little nervous, but then he seemed to enjoy it. Ryker also got to go swimming for the first time without his gtube. He got cold and the pool wasn't very accommodating for little babies, but he used a floaty. He did great. I think it's going to be a hit this summer. It will give us something to do other then just sitting home.
Another big hit this last month has been softball. Playing twice a week is kicking my butt. I use to playing everyday with no problems, now I am feeling how old I am. I am not even that old, but I am always sore and stiff the next day. It's been fun. I really need some practice. I can't hit the ball like I use to and I am struggling with catching fly balls. I know getting hit in the head has really taken a toll on me. I am playing nervous and not myself. But I am enjoying every minute of it. Our family team may not be the best team, but we are having a good time playing together. Our wingers tradition has really been fun as well. It reminds me of when I was younger and spending all summer at the ballpark. That's how it will be with our little family. I will always play and hopefully my kids will love it as much as I do.
The last weekend we took a little camping trip down south to Canyonland National Park. We had a blast as a family! The trip down was great. We just took our time and in no rush. Ryker also did great on the long car ride. Surprisingly Bailey did great on the ride down and back up. The first day we set up camp, played games just Parker and I, and went swimming in this really cool waterfall. We didn't hang out much with his parents that first day, but it was so much fun just hanging out with just our little family. We should go camping more often by ourselves. No technology, no phones, it's quiet and peaceful. No stress just relaxing. Ryker had so much fun as well. No therapy and doctors. Just fun. We went on a rzr ride for a couple of hours the next day and then went and played in the river. Let me tell you, Ryker loved the river! Bailey loved it even more. I have never seen our dog have that much energy. He ran through the water like a puppy. It definitely wore him out. We had a little mishap down at the river. Ryker slipped into the water face first. It was a little scary. He couldn't breath because he had water up his nose. Lucky I stayed calm and patted his back to get the water out. Other then that scary event, the rest of the trip was a blast.
This month we found out that Ryker has allergies to food. We will be taking a trip to an allergy doctor. I fed him eggs and he had a reaction and closed off his airway. His ears turned red, hives, red eyes, swollen face. It was scary. We almost took him to the hospital, but I have such a bad taste in my mouth for Primary's. I just couldn't do it. So we gave him some benedryl and prayed he would get better quickly. Parker gave him a blessing, (I am so grateful for the priesthood) and he was okay. Another miracle for the Ryk man. Hopefully we the doctor can test to see what else he can't have so we don't have to deal with that again.
May was an adventure. I can't believe it's over. This year has gone by so fast and summer is already here. Summer is going to be an adventure in it's self. Let's see what's in storage in June!
May also was a month of firsts for Ryker man. He got to take a trip in the RzR for the first time. He was a little nervous, but then he seemed to enjoy it. Ryker also got to go swimming for the first time without his gtube. He got cold and the pool wasn't very accommodating for little babies, but he used a floaty. He did great. I think it's going to be a hit this summer. It will give us something to do other then just sitting home.
Another big hit this last month has been softball. Playing twice a week is kicking my butt. I use to playing everyday with no problems, now I am feeling how old I am. I am not even that old, but I am always sore and stiff the next day. It's been fun. I really need some practice. I can't hit the ball like I use to and I am struggling with catching fly balls. I know getting hit in the head has really taken a toll on me. I am playing nervous and not myself. But I am enjoying every minute of it. Our family team may not be the best team, but we are having a good time playing together. Our wingers tradition has really been fun as well. It reminds me of when I was younger and spending all summer at the ballpark. That's how it will be with our little family. I will always play and hopefully my kids will love it as much as I do.
The last weekend we took a little camping trip down south to Canyonland National Park. We had a blast as a family! The trip down was great. We just took our time and in no rush. Ryker also did great on the long car ride. Surprisingly Bailey did great on the ride down and back up. The first day we set up camp, played games just Parker and I, and went swimming in this really cool waterfall. We didn't hang out much with his parents that first day, but it was so much fun just hanging out with just our little family. We should go camping more often by ourselves. No technology, no phones, it's quiet and peaceful. No stress just relaxing. Ryker had so much fun as well. No therapy and doctors. Just fun. We went on a rzr ride for a couple of hours the next day and then went and played in the river. Let me tell you, Ryker loved the river! Bailey loved it even more. I have never seen our dog have that much energy. He ran through the water like a puppy. It definitely wore him out. We had a little mishap down at the river. Ryker slipped into the water face first. It was a little scary. He couldn't breath because he had water up his nose. Lucky I stayed calm and patted his back to get the water out. Other then that scary event, the rest of the trip was a blast.
This month we found out that Ryker has allergies to food. We will be taking a trip to an allergy doctor. I fed him eggs and he had a reaction and closed off his airway. His ears turned red, hives, red eyes, swollen face. It was scary. We almost took him to the hospital, but I have such a bad taste in my mouth for Primary's. I just couldn't do it. So we gave him some benedryl and prayed he would get better quickly. Parker gave him a blessing, (I am so grateful for the priesthood) and he was okay. Another miracle for the Ryk man. Hopefully we the doctor can test to see what else he can't have so we don't have to deal with that again.
May was an adventure. I can't believe it's over. This year has gone by so fast and summer is already here. Summer is going to be an adventure in it's self. Let's see what's in storage in June!
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Sneak peek of April 2016
Now April was a fun month. We had a good time in April. We started the month off with conference. I absolutely love conference!! It brings me so much peace, hope, and inspiration to be better. It is always the best to start a month off with talks by inspired brothers and sisters of our Heavenly Father.
I did lots of yard work in April. To be honest, I hate pulling weeds, but it does make your yard look so fresh with they are gone. We still have lots to do in our backyard. I am not looking forward to it. But when it's done, it will be beautiful. All I got to say is, our next house we will be putting in our our garden touches. Nothing huge like this house and the great thing about the next house is that no one before us will have trashed the crap out of it. The last two houses we bought we have had to do so much to the yard and it's back breaking work. Yes, I know it's good for you, but I would rather be doing my hobbies then yard work.
So in April I started a softball team for the Julian and Allen family clans. We play every Friday night. It's a blast. I also joined a Wednesday coed league. I am loving every second of it. I just feel like softball is my thing. I am good at it and I feel like I can make friends doing it. Every time I get ready to play I get the softball butterflies and there's a shaking in my bones. I love the feeling I get when I am on the field and when I am up to bat. Heavenly Father really has blessed me with a talent. It is what I have needed to release built up stress and anxiety throughout the week. It makes me a happier person. I won't ever be giving up on this sport. I love it too much! Well with softball comes injuries. Those of you who know me. I play hardcore all out, diving, sliding, do it or die attitude. When you play like this there is going to be times of injury, well I experienced my first one of the season my second week of games. I was pitching and a line drive was hit so hard I didn't even see it coming. It hit me right in the head. I was out! I had to go to the hospital in an ambulance. (That cost a pretty penny) Luckily I didn't have any brain bleeds, but a huge concussion and a knocking headache. The doctor cut a incision on my head to help with the goose egg. She pushed all the blood out and it bled for 6 hours. I was grateful she did that because my black eyes would have been worse. It was a long two weeks. No softball, no housework, no nothing. I just sat on my butt. Not fun. But now I am in full swing of things again. Softball here I come!
April I found the love of upcycling old things I find either in my house or at thrift stores. I have made some really cute home decor for my house. I also found the love of painting. We finished our Kitchen cabinets in April, I also painted stripes on the wall of our family room, Stenciled an awesome design in our front room and did some great accent walls in our master bed and two bathrooms. I am enjoying decorating our house even though we will only be here for another years or so. It is giving me ideas of what I want to do in our next house. I think in the next house I am going to try venturing out into other colors for the kids room and maybe Parker's Man cave area. We will see! I got to admit though our kitchen is looking pretty amazing. Redoing the cabinets really made a huge difference. It's fun to have crafting ideas and get them done. I love it!
April was a month of Ryker developmental Miracles. Ryker figured out how to sit unassisted this month. He got to show off his stuff to his therapists and they are loving the improvements. Thank goodness. I was getting worried they would just right us off and we would have to find new ones. He is also cruising up a storm with rolling. Ryker goes all over the place now. They way I found that out was he was on my bed and all of a sudden he decided to roll off the bed. Crash! Onto the floor. First bruise! Within the same week he rolls to get his oxygen tank and knocks it over on himself. Once again reminder that my baby is a mover. Mama needs to be prepared. We also had a sleep study in April. That was crazy. Once again I hate Primary's. It is the worse place ever. I am so happy we don't have to go there very much anymore. I get these chills that go up my spine every time I walk through the doors. I hate that place. Well a week before the study I called the doctor to see if we could do a sleep study without the bipap settings. He told me he didn't feel comfortable doing that. I did try to tell him Ryker wasn't tolerating the bipap, but of course he didn't listen. Well the sleep study comes along and of course, Ryker doesn't tolerate the bipap. Just like I said. For 5 hours the Respiratory therapist struggled to get him to fall asleep because he hate the mask. The only time he fell asleep was on the nasal cannula. Well she finally called the doctor to get orders to do a study without the bipap and what do you know. Ryker did amazing!! Got the phone call that he doesn't need a machine to breath anymore. No more bipap! No more medical bills for it! He doesn't have severe sleep apnea anymore. He just needs a small dose of oxygen while he sleeps. Huge!!! Huge!! Heavenly Father once again blessed my little buddy with a miracle. I truly didn't think he would ever get off that thing. I thought he would be on it his whole life. Not matter what the doctors say, that surgery was the answer. I am glad we stuck to our guns. Little Ryker is proving the medical world wrong everyday, I love it! And I am so proud to be him mama! Great job little buddy!
April went by fast I felt. To be honest I can't believe summer is just around the corner. Life has been going by so fast. Ryker is almost two and I can't believe we been dealing with all the craziness for two years now. We are barely catching our breath right now and before you know it life will through us into another tornado and we will be moving again. Wow!
I did lots of yard work in April. To be honest, I hate pulling weeds, but it does make your yard look so fresh with they are gone. We still have lots to do in our backyard. I am not looking forward to it. But when it's done, it will be beautiful. All I got to say is, our next house we will be putting in our our garden touches. Nothing huge like this house and the great thing about the next house is that no one before us will have trashed the crap out of it. The last two houses we bought we have had to do so much to the yard and it's back breaking work. Yes, I know it's good for you, but I would rather be doing my hobbies then yard work.
So in April I started a softball team for the Julian and Allen family clans. We play every Friday night. It's a blast. I also joined a Wednesday coed league. I am loving every second of it. I just feel like softball is my thing. I am good at it and I feel like I can make friends doing it. Every time I get ready to play I get the softball butterflies and there's a shaking in my bones. I love the feeling I get when I am on the field and when I am up to bat. Heavenly Father really has blessed me with a talent. It is what I have needed to release built up stress and anxiety throughout the week. It makes me a happier person. I won't ever be giving up on this sport. I love it too much! Well with softball comes injuries. Those of you who know me. I play hardcore all out, diving, sliding, do it or die attitude. When you play like this there is going to be times of injury, well I experienced my first one of the season my second week of games. I was pitching and a line drive was hit so hard I didn't even see it coming. It hit me right in the head. I was out! I had to go to the hospital in an ambulance. (That cost a pretty penny) Luckily I didn't have any brain bleeds, but a huge concussion and a knocking headache. The doctor cut a incision on my head to help with the goose egg. She pushed all the blood out and it bled for 6 hours. I was grateful she did that because my black eyes would have been worse. It was a long two weeks. No softball, no housework, no nothing. I just sat on my butt. Not fun. But now I am in full swing of things again. Softball here I come!
April I found the love of upcycling old things I find either in my house or at thrift stores. I have made some really cute home decor for my house. I also found the love of painting. We finished our Kitchen cabinets in April, I also painted stripes on the wall of our family room, Stenciled an awesome design in our front room and did some great accent walls in our master bed and two bathrooms. I am enjoying decorating our house even though we will only be here for another years or so. It is giving me ideas of what I want to do in our next house. I think in the next house I am going to try venturing out into other colors for the kids room and maybe Parker's Man cave area. We will see! I got to admit though our kitchen is looking pretty amazing. Redoing the cabinets really made a huge difference. It's fun to have crafting ideas and get them done. I love it!
April was a month of Ryker developmental Miracles. Ryker figured out how to sit unassisted this month. He got to show off his stuff to his therapists and they are loving the improvements. Thank goodness. I was getting worried they would just right us off and we would have to find new ones. He is also cruising up a storm with rolling. Ryker goes all over the place now. They way I found that out was he was on my bed and all of a sudden he decided to roll off the bed. Crash! Onto the floor. First bruise! Within the same week he rolls to get his oxygen tank and knocks it over on himself. Once again reminder that my baby is a mover. Mama needs to be prepared. We also had a sleep study in April. That was crazy. Once again I hate Primary's. It is the worse place ever. I am so happy we don't have to go there very much anymore. I get these chills that go up my spine every time I walk through the doors. I hate that place. Well a week before the study I called the doctor to see if we could do a sleep study without the bipap settings. He told me he didn't feel comfortable doing that. I did try to tell him Ryker wasn't tolerating the bipap, but of course he didn't listen. Well the sleep study comes along and of course, Ryker doesn't tolerate the bipap. Just like I said. For 5 hours the Respiratory therapist struggled to get him to fall asleep because he hate the mask. The only time he fell asleep was on the nasal cannula. Well she finally called the doctor to get orders to do a study without the bipap and what do you know. Ryker did amazing!! Got the phone call that he doesn't need a machine to breath anymore. No more bipap! No more medical bills for it! He doesn't have severe sleep apnea anymore. He just needs a small dose of oxygen while he sleeps. Huge!!! Huge!! Heavenly Father once again blessed my little buddy with a miracle. I truly didn't think he would ever get off that thing. I thought he would be on it his whole life. Not matter what the doctors say, that surgery was the answer. I am glad we stuck to our guns. Little Ryker is proving the medical world wrong everyday, I love it! And I am so proud to be him mama! Great job little buddy!
April went by fast I felt. To be honest I can't believe summer is just around the corner. Life has been going by so fast. Ryker is almost two and I can't believe we been dealing with all the craziness for two years now. We are barely catching our breath right now and before you know it life will through us into another tornado and we will be moving again. Wow!
Updating my peeps... Here's a look at what we did in March
I haven't been the best person to update the blog. Parker tells me if I want followers I have to write something. So here I am followers, I am writing something for your enjoyment. Let's do a little run down of all amazingness of our little Allen Family.
March: Josh and Sadie came up quiet a bit in March. We hung out a ton! I sure love those two. Sadie is such a great sister and a huge example of how I want to be as a person. She has so much patience and compassion for others. I love watching her with my little Ryker. She has a pure love for him. She is going be a great mom someday. I can't wait to move closer to her. I am totally hanging out with her so much when I move closer to them.
We had the opportunity in the beginning of March to see our long lost friends from Idaho Falls. They just moved back from Georgia to Idaho Falls. We were and still are super excited to be closer to them. We love them so much. They are such a great example of friendship and support through the hard times. We hungout with them all weekend and got to see how big their kids have gotten. Time really does go by fast. Kids grow up so much in two years. We had a blast going to a decade dinner party with them. We dressed up in the 20's and our costumes were pretty fantastic. I was proud of ourselves for throwing something amazing like that together. It was a good time. March was also a headache because after that trip, our little family came down with two weeks of torture sicknesses. I got the stomach flu for a week. Being sick and trying to take care of little ryks is hard. I was worrying the whole time he would get it. Well Parker was the unlucky one who got it, but it was much worse for him. He ended up with a stomach infection. Don't fun missing work for being sick. Well through all the craziness, Ryker ended up getting a really bad respiratory virus and double ear infection. It was so bad we debted for two days if we needed to take him to the hospital. In the pit of my stomach I kinda new I should have, but I didn't want to experience the hospital again. We have had enough complications with Primary's that I didn't want to go back. It's like I've been traumatized from that hospital and I don't ever want to go back.
March was a busy month, we had Easter, which was way crazy, Jonas' baby blessing was that day as well and celebrating Easter with both sides of the family. We played the game of driving everywhere. It was a pretty good day. We got to see all the favorites and eat lots of good food. Sheila made a great Easter egg hunt for the grand kids. Ryker still doesn't understand all the fun of it all, but someday he will. It was great to get the traditions in anyways. We also had the Provo Temple dedication at the end of March. We haven't been to the temple as a couple in forever. I totally miss the days when we could go weekly, but I am still an overly protective mama and have a hard time leaving Ryker with anyone. Hopefully I get over that someday, but right now I am just now ready. It was a great experience to feel the temple spirit and here the wonderful stories of the history of the temple building. I love this church so much. It brings me so much joy. March was a hard month for Ryker and his development. I was feeling and sometimes still feel the burden of having special needs baby. We were told over and over of how much Ryker is behind in his milestones. One therapist even put us on hold for 6 weeks because he just wasn't moving forward. It's a little frustrating and burdensome. I feel sometimes I don't try hard enough to make Ryker do his therapy at home. I often give in to his crying unlike the therapists, but we just keep trying. It's been rough. Just another reminder of how my life is always going to be and a huge reminder that Ryker is just a special boy and working at his own pace. He is special needs. There are days I don't see that. I just pretend he is normal like all other kids. But then sometimes things happen to put that reminder back. It's like hearing the news from the doctor again. I still take one day at a time. I think it will always be like that.
I even got a new calling for our ward. I am the new Relief Society Activities coordinator. I was this in Idaho Falls for a while so I kinda know what to do. I planned a really cool Relief Society Birthday Party for March. We had a Mad Hatter Tea Party and I tied in all the crazy life experience Alice had in Wonderland with the gospel. We also played The queen of Hearts minute to win it games. I had fun, but the difficult thing for this ward is no one comes. And the ones that do come I felt didn't want to join in on the fun and they have thought it was dumb. I don't know. I struggle a lot with this ward. I feel like I don't fit in. It just doesn't feel like a family like our other ward in Idaho Falls did. I feel like people don't want to go out of their way to make friends with anyone. They are all stuck in their own worlds without inviting others to come in. I know I could do better at inviting others into my world, but it's difficult when you don't feel like you fit in.
March was a pretty interesting month. Still just rolling with the punches. Living life to it's fullest. I did invest my time in march to planting seeds to make my flower beds beautiful this year. It was hard work, but it was well worth it. They are making their way into the world and turning out to be so pretty. Well peeps....there's a glimpse into what we did in March 2016.
March: Josh and Sadie came up quiet a bit in March. We hung out a ton! I sure love those two. Sadie is such a great sister and a huge example of how I want to be as a person. She has so much patience and compassion for others. I love watching her with my little Ryker. She has a pure love for him. She is going be a great mom someday. I can't wait to move closer to her. I am totally hanging out with her so much when I move closer to them.
We had the opportunity in the beginning of March to see our long lost friends from Idaho Falls. They just moved back from Georgia to Idaho Falls. We were and still are super excited to be closer to them. We love them so much. They are such a great example of friendship and support through the hard times. We hungout with them all weekend and got to see how big their kids have gotten. Time really does go by fast. Kids grow up so much in two years. We had a blast going to a decade dinner party with them. We dressed up in the 20's and our costumes were pretty fantastic. I was proud of ourselves for throwing something amazing like that together. It was a good time. March was also a headache because after that trip, our little family came down with two weeks of torture sicknesses. I got the stomach flu for a week. Being sick and trying to take care of little ryks is hard. I was worrying the whole time he would get it. Well Parker was the unlucky one who got it, but it was much worse for him. He ended up with a stomach infection. Don't fun missing work for being sick. Well through all the craziness, Ryker ended up getting a really bad respiratory virus and double ear infection. It was so bad we debted for two days if we needed to take him to the hospital. In the pit of my stomach I kinda new I should have, but I didn't want to experience the hospital again. We have had enough complications with Primary's that I didn't want to go back. It's like I've been traumatized from that hospital and I don't ever want to go back.
March was a busy month, we had Easter, which was way crazy, Jonas' baby blessing was that day as well and celebrating Easter with both sides of the family. We played the game of driving everywhere. It was a pretty good day. We got to see all the favorites and eat lots of good food. Sheila made a great Easter egg hunt for the grand kids. Ryker still doesn't understand all the fun of it all, but someday he will. It was great to get the traditions in anyways. We also had the Provo Temple dedication at the end of March. We haven't been to the temple as a couple in forever. I totally miss the days when we could go weekly, but I am still an overly protective mama and have a hard time leaving Ryker with anyone. Hopefully I get over that someday, but right now I am just now ready. It was a great experience to feel the temple spirit and here the wonderful stories of the history of the temple building. I love this church so much. It brings me so much joy. March was a hard month for Ryker and his development. I was feeling and sometimes still feel the burden of having special needs baby. We were told over and over of how much Ryker is behind in his milestones. One therapist even put us on hold for 6 weeks because he just wasn't moving forward. It's a little frustrating and burdensome. I feel sometimes I don't try hard enough to make Ryker do his therapy at home. I often give in to his crying unlike the therapists, but we just keep trying. It's been rough. Just another reminder of how my life is always going to be and a huge reminder that Ryker is just a special boy and working at his own pace. He is special needs. There are days I don't see that. I just pretend he is normal like all other kids. But then sometimes things happen to put that reminder back. It's like hearing the news from the doctor again. I still take one day at a time. I think it will always be like that.
I even got a new calling for our ward. I am the new Relief Society Activities coordinator. I was this in Idaho Falls for a while so I kinda know what to do. I planned a really cool Relief Society Birthday Party for March. We had a Mad Hatter Tea Party and I tied in all the crazy life experience Alice had in Wonderland with the gospel. We also played The queen of Hearts minute to win it games. I had fun, but the difficult thing for this ward is no one comes. And the ones that do come I felt didn't want to join in on the fun and they have thought it was dumb. I don't know. I struggle a lot with this ward. I feel like I don't fit in. It just doesn't feel like a family like our other ward in Idaho Falls did. I feel like people don't want to go out of their way to make friends with anyone. They are all stuck in their own worlds without inviting others to come in. I know I could do better at inviting others into my world, but it's difficult when you don't feel like you fit in.
March was a pretty interesting month. Still just rolling with the punches. Living life to it's fullest. I did invest my time in march to planting seeds to make my flower beds beautiful this year. It was hard work, but it was well worth it. They are making their way into the world and turning out to be so pretty. Well peeps....there's a glimpse into what we did in March 2016.
Sunday, May 8, 2016
May 8, 2016 A reflection on Mother's day!
Mother's day! I can't believe another has come again. Last year was my first one and to be honest I know I was very stressed to be a mother at that point in my life. I reflect on my two years of being a mother and it is something totally different then what I expected. My experience as a mother is completely different then anyone else's experience. It's my own personal motherhood experience I wouldn't change it any other way.
This last week, I was visited by my mother in law and sister in law. As I watched those two I had a great appreciation for them in a motherly aspect. My sister in law has a crazy toddler who I adore so much, but he is very mobile. He has toddler aspects that have been in grained to his brain that Ryker doesn't possess yet. But as I watched her parent him and his little sister I was impressed with how she dealt with it all. She does it with so much grace and love. I am grateful Ryker is wear he is developmentally because seeing what he could be, I was thinking I don't know if I could keep up. She is such an amazing example of patience. I need more of her patience in my life.
My mother in law. Wow! What a lady! She is one of my best friends, someone I call for spiritual and temporal advice. She is always willing to service my family and help out whenever she can. In my eyes she is exactly what a grandma is suppose to be. She reminds me of my grandma. Fun, adventurous, and spiritual. I love having deep conversations with her about my life, my son's life, my husband, and our future. I love dreaming big dreams with her. She makes my life full of traditions and I appreciate all the traditions she has planned for our family. I couldn't ask for a better mother in law. She is the balance I need in my life because she is completely different then my own mother.
Now my mom, man I love her. She too is one of my best friends. She's a huge inspiration to me. After life has thrown her through the ringer she is still willing to push forward. Now there have been some crazy ups and extreme downs with our relationship. There are times I am so frustrated with her that I want to ring her neck, but then there are times that I wouldn't want her to change because her craziness is exactly what I need. She pushes me to be better. She makes me be stronger. She has installed the Julian fight to keep going and don't take NO for answer. She has made me braver and fearless. My mom is incredible! I wouldn't change her one bit, mostly because I am exactly like her. We butt head often because we are both head strong. My likes are her likes. My mother is crazy, but her crazy is my crazy and that's the way I like it. My son is lucky to have such a loving, crazy grandma like my mom. I hope one day he has some of our crazy in him as well.
I love mother's day. I really gets me thinking about all the great mother examples that have make me who I am today. I have worked with amazing ladies at Joanns. They really help me see the importance of life and what I looked forward in the future. My ex boyfriend's mother was a huge example to me. I needed her in that point in time. She also had a huge impact on who I am and what I want to become. All these amazing mothers have blessed my life so much. I hope one day I can possess some maybe even all the amazing Christ like attributes they all have. I hope this mother's day in unforgettable to all of you.
This last week, I was visited by my mother in law and sister in law. As I watched those two I had a great appreciation for them in a motherly aspect. My sister in law has a crazy toddler who I adore so much, but he is very mobile. He has toddler aspects that have been in grained to his brain that Ryker doesn't possess yet. But as I watched her parent him and his little sister I was impressed with how she dealt with it all. She does it with so much grace and love. I am grateful Ryker is wear he is developmentally because seeing what he could be, I was thinking I don't know if I could keep up. She is such an amazing example of patience. I need more of her patience in my life.
My mother in law. Wow! What a lady! She is one of my best friends, someone I call for spiritual and temporal advice. She is always willing to service my family and help out whenever she can. In my eyes she is exactly what a grandma is suppose to be. She reminds me of my grandma. Fun, adventurous, and spiritual. I love having deep conversations with her about my life, my son's life, my husband, and our future. I love dreaming big dreams with her. She makes my life full of traditions and I appreciate all the traditions she has planned for our family. I couldn't ask for a better mother in law. She is the balance I need in my life because she is completely different then my own mother.
Now my mom, man I love her. She too is one of my best friends. She's a huge inspiration to me. After life has thrown her through the ringer she is still willing to push forward. Now there have been some crazy ups and extreme downs with our relationship. There are times I am so frustrated with her that I want to ring her neck, but then there are times that I wouldn't want her to change because her craziness is exactly what I need. She pushes me to be better. She makes me be stronger. She has installed the Julian fight to keep going and don't take NO for answer. She has made me braver and fearless. My mom is incredible! I wouldn't change her one bit, mostly because I am exactly like her. We butt head often because we are both head strong. My likes are her likes. My mother is crazy, but her crazy is my crazy and that's the way I like it. My son is lucky to have such a loving, crazy grandma like my mom. I hope one day he has some of our crazy in him as well.
I love mother's day. I really gets me thinking about all the great mother examples that have make me who I am today. I have worked with amazing ladies at Joanns. They really help me see the importance of life and what I looked forward in the future. My ex boyfriend's mother was a huge example to me. I needed her in that point in time. She also had a huge impact on who I am and what I want to become. All these amazing mothers have blessed my life so much. I hope one day I can possess some maybe even all the amazing Christ like attributes they all have. I hope this mother's day in unforgettable to all of you.
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
It's been awhile...
Man I can't believe what has happened the last month or so. We have had a baby shower, sickness, vacation, new babies born, and surgery. Our family has been real busy this last month with birthdays, family functions, and lots of busy weekends. Hopefully it will slow down soon.
Well let's start off with a quick run down of all the exciting adventures for this month. We started it off with a baby shower for my sister in law Kenzi. We partied like no other. That little cute niece of mine has everything she ever needs and all those bows we made was pretty crazy. She will be one stylish baby doll. I even made her a great diaper cake with a couple of cute bows she can wear. I got to meet her a couple of weeks after the baby shower. I snuggled her and kissed her sweet baby head. I couldn't believe how little she was, but in reality she is just the perfect size for a new born. It's crazy to think that Ryker was so much smaller and shorter then her. It was really fun to see how much hair she has though. Her princess like features are adorable. She is such a sweet baby.
We have been trying to keep Ryker a happy healthy little boy this past month for his surgery that is taken place today. Sometimes I get frustrated because some people just don't understand how serious a sickness can be for my little man. Reminding people not to come over, or we can't be around those that are sick. Some people are in denial of how sick their kids are or that it's just a little runny nose. My kid is just tired. It's s touchy subject sometimes, but for my little man a little cold your kid has or a small virus that makes your kid throw up can and probably will make Ryker go to the hospital. I am such a mama bear when it comes to that kind of thing. I feel like we can't be around some people because we just don't know until it's too late. Well we made it through this crazy sickness month with no hiccups. Hopefully the rest of the cold and flu sickness season will be successful. Thank goodness we are still getting the RSV shot. Next year will be a more of a worry story without it.
We had a family vacation this last month. We traveled to Saint George for the parade of homes and warm weather. I am not going to lie, that weather was like a dream. Cool breezes, wonderful sun shine, and beautiful red rock. It was pretty awesome! The houses we saw were pretty cool too! It gave us lots of ideas on what to do to our next house. Ryker did ok. We had some mishaps such as loosing his bottle and leaving his nasal cannula at home. oops. Luckly for me, I was prepared with extras. We even had a mishap with Ryker getting allergies. But overall it was a success and hopefully we can get go on a longer one in the summer time.
We also had another baby born last week. Baby Jonas Julian Younkin. He totally looks like his daddy. Congrats Daddy Jeromy! I am so excited to be an aunt to your cute son! Your going to be such a great parent!
Birthdays are always a joy in January and February. We have Grandma Sheila, Tyce, Mommy, and Uncle Josh all within a couple of weeks of each other. Crazy! We celebrated with tons of cake, ice cream and family get together. My birthday this year was epic. We went to nickle mania to play arcade games and won little Ryker some awesome toys! Uncle Jeromy came up with an idea of going through all the machines a getting the extra coins. It was brilliant when we needed a few more tickets for an amazing Snake and Hat! I am loving getting some gaming time in with my two brothers. It's nice to live close to them.
We went to the new provo temple open house this past week. It was AMAZING! They used so much of the historical stuff from the old tabernacle. Ryker and I got to hang with Sadie and Josh all weekend. They slept at our house for two nights, we made skirts while the boys played video games. Bonding time! We even did a little dance dance to the kinec! Great times!
So a little while ago I was told because Ryker is special needs and will most likely be on an IEP, he will start Preschool next year, Like 2017! Makes me happy, excited, nervous, and anxious. He is doing so well. I can't believe we are here in his development state. He is impressing everyone mostly his mama. Well with this new information we have decided that we maybe moving more south to Utah county. There are a couple of great programs for Ryker that we are interested in and we are thinking because of all our stairs it would be beneficial for Ryker if we built a house that is all one level. He isn't walking yet, but int he future he will be using a walker or a wheel chair or something and our stairs will just not work. We have needed to be here in this house for family and decisions of others makes it so we need to be here. But I feel like our time is coming to an end here and it will be time for us to move again for Ryker. God really puts us where are need to be and we always find out reasons why we were suppose to do the things we do. God is amazing in showing us the tender mercies, miracles, and blessings when we follow his path and way for each of us. I feel often that Ryker has come to remind me of the miracles in my life and of God's plan for me. My little man humbles me everyday and keeps me on the straight and narrow path back to God. I have also noticed the amazing change in those around him. His grandpa once told me that Ryker is here to save our precious family. He is here to show us the way. Relationships and hearts have changed in both sides of our families because of Ryker's influence.
I sure do love my little Ryks. He amazes me everyday. Ryker is so close to our Heavenly Father, He is always happy and patient and courageous. He is one of the bravest little boys I know. Today showed me how brave that kid is. After surgery he had is eyes open (after they were bleeding and sore) he was ready to play and smiled all day at the hospital. The only thing that upset him was how hungry he was, after the bottle he was ready to rock and roll. All the nurses were amazed at how happy he was after surgery. Once again he proved to his mom how special and brave he is in this sweet life of his. We went home after only a few short hours of coming out of surgery. I was expecting to stay over night like all the other experiences we have had this last year.
This last surgery made me grateful for all the amazing things Ryker does in his little life. There were many kids in the surgery waiting room that have far more complications then Ryker. He is finally over all his crazy his of medical problems. All of them have been fixed and now he is finally like other kids. NORMAL. Well Ryker normal, but still he is on the right path to improvement. Ryker is special and I hope all that can have the pleasure of being with him can feel how special he is.
Well let's start off with a quick run down of all the exciting adventures for this month. We started it off with a baby shower for my sister in law Kenzi. We partied like no other. That little cute niece of mine has everything she ever needs and all those bows we made was pretty crazy. She will be one stylish baby doll. I even made her a great diaper cake with a couple of cute bows she can wear. I got to meet her a couple of weeks after the baby shower. I snuggled her and kissed her sweet baby head. I couldn't believe how little she was, but in reality she is just the perfect size for a new born. It's crazy to think that Ryker was so much smaller and shorter then her. It was really fun to see how much hair she has though. Her princess like features are adorable. She is such a sweet baby.
We have been trying to keep Ryker a happy healthy little boy this past month for his surgery that is taken place today. Sometimes I get frustrated because some people just don't understand how serious a sickness can be for my little man. Reminding people not to come over, or we can't be around those that are sick. Some people are in denial of how sick their kids are or that it's just a little runny nose. My kid is just tired. It's s touchy subject sometimes, but for my little man a little cold your kid has or a small virus that makes your kid throw up can and probably will make Ryker go to the hospital. I am such a mama bear when it comes to that kind of thing. I feel like we can't be around some people because we just don't know until it's too late. Well we made it through this crazy sickness month with no hiccups. Hopefully the rest of the cold and flu sickness season will be successful. Thank goodness we are still getting the RSV shot. Next year will be a more of a worry story without it.
We had a family vacation this last month. We traveled to Saint George for the parade of homes and warm weather. I am not going to lie, that weather was like a dream. Cool breezes, wonderful sun shine, and beautiful red rock. It was pretty awesome! The houses we saw were pretty cool too! It gave us lots of ideas on what to do to our next house. Ryker did ok. We had some mishaps such as loosing his bottle and leaving his nasal cannula at home. oops. Luckly for me, I was prepared with extras. We even had a mishap with Ryker getting allergies. But overall it was a success and hopefully we can get go on a longer one in the summer time.
We also had another baby born last week. Baby Jonas Julian Younkin. He totally looks like his daddy. Congrats Daddy Jeromy! I am so excited to be an aunt to your cute son! Your going to be such a great parent!
Birthdays are always a joy in January and February. We have Grandma Sheila, Tyce, Mommy, and Uncle Josh all within a couple of weeks of each other. Crazy! We celebrated with tons of cake, ice cream and family get together. My birthday this year was epic. We went to nickle mania to play arcade games and won little Ryker some awesome toys! Uncle Jeromy came up with an idea of going through all the machines a getting the extra coins. It was brilliant when we needed a few more tickets for an amazing Snake and Hat! I am loving getting some gaming time in with my two brothers. It's nice to live close to them.
We went to the new provo temple open house this past week. It was AMAZING! They used so much of the historical stuff from the old tabernacle. Ryker and I got to hang with Sadie and Josh all weekend. They slept at our house for two nights, we made skirts while the boys played video games. Bonding time! We even did a little dance dance to the kinec! Great times!
So a little while ago I was told because Ryker is special needs and will most likely be on an IEP, he will start Preschool next year, Like 2017! Makes me happy, excited, nervous, and anxious. He is doing so well. I can't believe we are here in his development state. He is impressing everyone mostly his mama. Well with this new information we have decided that we maybe moving more south to Utah county. There are a couple of great programs for Ryker that we are interested in and we are thinking because of all our stairs it would be beneficial for Ryker if we built a house that is all one level. He isn't walking yet, but int he future he will be using a walker or a wheel chair or something and our stairs will just not work. We have needed to be here in this house for family and decisions of others makes it so we need to be here. But I feel like our time is coming to an end here and it will be time for us to move again for Ryker. God really puts us where are need to be and we always find out reasons why we were suppose to do the things we do. God is amazing in showing us the tender mercies, miracles, and blessings when we follow his path and way for each of us. I feel often that Ryker has come to remind me of the miracles in my life and of God's plan for me. My little man humbles me everyday and keeps me on the straight and narrow path back to God. I have also noticed the amazing change in those around him. His grandpa once told me that Ryker is here to save our precious family. He is here to show us the way. Relationships and hearts have changed in both sides of our families because of Ryker's influence.
I sure do love my little Ryks. He amazes me everyday. Ryker is so close to our Heavenly Father, He is always happy and patient and courageous. He is one of the bravest little boys I know. Today showed me how brave that kid is. After surgery he had is eyes open (after they were bleeding and sore) he was ready to play and smiled all day at the hospital. The only thing that upset him was how hungry he was, after the bottle he was ready to rock and roll. All the nurses were amazed at how happy he was after surgery. Once again he proved to his mom how special and brave he is in this sweet life of his. We went home after only a few short hours of coming out of surgery. I was expecting to stay over night like all the other experiences we have had this last year.
This last surgery made me grateful for all the amazing things Ryker does in his little life. There were many kids in the surgery waiting room that have far more complications then Ryker. He is finally over all his crazy his of medical problems. All of them have been fixed and now he is finally like other kids. NORMAL. Well Ryker normal, but still he is on the right path to improvement. Ryker is special and I hope all that can have the pleasure of being with him can feel how special he is.
Saturday, January 30, 2016
January has flown by!
Wow! I can't believe how fast January has gone by. I feel like we were just getting over the holidays and now February is in two days.
As I sit here thinking back a year ago, we were getting home from Primary Children's for the long and scary stay at the hospital. We were told many times Ryker wasn't doing well and he was dropping his oxygen to the teen's. We even signed papers stating the hospital wasn't liable for Ryker's situation if we chose to go home without being trached. They basically told us he was going to die, but that thought never ever not even being born early came to my mind. I never felt that worry or stress. The only stress I felt was help my baby so we could go home. I really just wanted out of there because they weren't doing anything for him that I couldn't do at home. Well I sit here and think, I am so glad I followed my mother's intuition. I am so grateful that our Heavenly Father speaks to us directly through the holy ghost. If I didn't have him and the priesthood blessings in our little family, I wouldn't have made it. I think over and over again how amazing Ryker is. He is the reason for me to remember our Heavevly Father. I will never be able to forget all the miracles. I have been so close to him this past year. Having Ryker in our family has truly changed my heart, faith, and patience. I don't know if I could have learned what I did without him and our year of trials has made me a different person.
This past week my sweet niece Naya Garcia was born. Unfortunately, with sick kids and conflicting scheduling we haven't made it over to see her. I want to snuggle that precious thing. But I hate to admit, I am slightly jealous of how perfect she is. The first time I saw Ryker he was so little with tubes. I didn't realize how hard things would be from that day on. This little sweet girl is so lucky not to live the hard medical life Ryker has been given and it makes me hurt inside to know it's not over for him. He will always have a surgery to wait for, doctors to see, and therapists to push him. He won't have the normal kid life like this sweet baby will with of all the appointments and people staring. My nephew who is four is already asking me questions like why is Ryker different? Why are his hands crippled? Why can't he walk like other kids? It has hit me, these are going to be questions I have to answer all the time. Ryker will have to answer these questions when he is older. I am scared to think of how kids will treat him.It's sad that all these fears and emotions come to me when I see my sweet niece. Sometimes I wish I had a kid that fit the normal kid picture, but then I remember all the miracles and tender mercies of have seen. I remember that Ryker has a special purpose here. I love being his mom. I am grateful to be his mom, but I know I am not perfect. Those thoughts do come into my mind sometimes, but I remember all the blessings we have with my little man and I know in my heart he was sent to me for a reason. So no matter how different you are my beautiful Ryker, I will always love you and you will always be normal in mommy's world.
As I sit here thinking back a year ago, we were getting home from Primary Children's for the long and scary stay at the hospital. We were told many times Ryker wasn't doing well and he was dropping his oxygen to the teen's. We even signed papers stating the hospital wasn't liable for Ryker's situation if we chose to go home without being trached. They basically told us he was going to die, but that thought never ever not even being born early came to my mind. I never felt that worry or stress. The only stress I felt was help my baby so we could go home. I really just wanted out of there because they weren't doing anything for him that I couldn't do at home. Well I sit here and think, I am so glad I followed my mother's intuition. I am so grateful that our Heavenly Father speaks to us directly through the holy ghost. If I didn't have him and the priesthood blessings in our little family, I wouldn't have made it. I think over and over again how amazing Ryker is. He is the reason for me to remember our Heavevly Father. I will never be able to forget all the miracles. I have been so close to him this past year. Having Ryker in our family has truly changed my heart, faith, and patience. I don't know if I could have learned what I did without him and our year of trials has made me a different person.
This past week my sweet niece Naya Garcia was born. Unfortunately, with sick kids and conflicting scheduling we haven't made it over to see her. I want to snuggle that precious thing. But I hate to admit, I am slightly jealous of how perfect she is. The first time I saw Ryker he was so little with tubes. I didn't realize how hard things would be from that day on. This little sweet girl is so lucky not to live the hard medical life Ryker has been given and it makes me hurt inside to know it's not over for him. He will always have a surgery to wait for, doctors to see, and therapists to push him. He won't have the normal kid life like this sweet baby will with of all the appointments and people staring. My nephew who is four is already asking me questions like why is Ryker different? Why are his hands crippled? Why can't he walk like other kids? It has hit me, these are going to be questions I have to answer all the time. Ryker will have to answer these questions when he is older. I am scared to think of how kids will treat him.It's sad that all these fears and emotions come to me when I see my sweet niece. Sometimes I wish I had a kid that fit the normal kid picture, but then I remember all the miracles and tender mercies of have seen. I remember that Ryker has a special purpose here. I love being his mom. I am grateful to be his mom, but I know I am not perfect. Those thoughts do come into my mind sometimes, but I remember all the blessings we have with my little man and I know in my heart he was sent to me for a reason. So no matter how different you are my beautiful Ryker, I will always love you and you will always be normal in mommy's world.
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