The fun times of August 2016

August was our relaxing summer month. We didn't have much going on, but we did have a couple of fun even happen. Ryker got to hang out with his 2nd cousins in Spanish Fork while Parker and I went to the Crash and Bash car derby in Nephi with the Allen Fam clan. It was pretty fun. I am not use to letting someone watch little Ryker so I was a little nervous leaving him. I knew he would be fine, but it's just Ryker. It was fine and I am sure it will happen again. It's just a little weird leaving my little buddy. He is with me all day everyday. It was good to not to have to worry about him though. Great date for sure!
We also went to the Desert Star playhouse. I have never been there before. It was so much fun. I love plays and musicals. This place served food while you watched. It was like all dressed up like the olden times of the theater experience. That was a for sure do again. I really loved it!
Josh and Sadie came up to our house a lot in August. It is always fun to hang with them. Sadie is my bestest friend ever! I love her so much. We have a good time together making things and painting furniture. I know Parker and Ryker enjoys it as well. Parker gets a video game buddy all weekend. And Ryker has such a special bond with his Auntie Sadie. It's crazy. He loves her so much! I love how we are so close to my family these days. Now that everyone is either married or has a family of their own we seem to be closer. I can't wait until Josh and Sadie have kiddos. We are going to have a blast getting together to have the cousins play. It's going to be a blast.
I found that sometimes dad's are not the best babysitters this month. I went food shopping with Sadie one Saturday. Josh and Parker were in charge of Ryker. I told them they need to feed him and put him down for a nap. We were gone for two hours. When we got back I found my little man in a pile of potato flakes and a full diaper. The two grown boys were both on the couch playing video games on their phones. Sometimes I wonder how my kid survives when Dad is in charge. LOL!
Ryker has grown so much this past month. He is in 2T clothes and getting so tall. I can't believe how big my little man is getting. He is finally growing into his big head. Milestones for him are a little difficult still. He is really wobbly when he is sitting on the floor and he absolutely hates to crawl. That crawling device we got him is only useful for holding dirty laundry and maybe an hour out of the day for crawling. I wish he had stronger muscles to get his little body moving. We were in a therapy appointment in August with his Physical Therapist. The last 5 minutes of the appointment we always have to rate him goals on a scale of 1 to 10. I know I have high expectations and he probably hasn't received a 10 by my rating scale. I broke down one therapy appointment. I expressed to the therapist how hard it is for me to see my little boy struggle and work so hard to move. My niece and nephew who are only 6-7 months old are already crawling around and sitting by themselves. It makes me so frustrated to see "NORMAL" kids to what Ryker can not. He doesn't understand it, but someday he will. I don't know what I am going to say to him or how he will feel. It breaks my heart to see my son struggle so much with just the little things.
August was a month full of grandparents. Ryker got to hang out with his Grandma and Grandpa Allen, Grandma Lori and Grandpa Julian, and we saw Grandma Julian some too. I am so glad he is getting to know them. I loved to spend time with my grandparents when I was little. It was my favorite thing to go sleepover and play cards. Ryker has some pretty awesome grandparents. I am so glad we are so close where he can get time to see them.
Well folks, that's our run down of August. I hope to post again soon. But I don't promise because I am not the best at this blog thing. If it's not graded for a homework assignment. It's a little tricky to get it done. Ha!

Where can I turn for Peace? And The Uncertainties of Life!

Lately, for some reason I have been feeling a spiritual slump. I feel the lack of the guidance of the spirit and spiritually confused. I have lots of unanswered questions of the future, of little Ryker, and of life in general. I have come to find where I turn for peace. It's through reading the scriptures and praying to my Father in Heaven. I have found the reasoning for the lack of spiritual uplifting is due to my lack of diligence in doing to small things. I am waiting for things to unfold, the eye opener of our purpose and reasons of why we are here in Clearfield. Its pretty frustrated to think I am wasting my time in a place, but is there is a purpose. Often I feel spiritual suffocated.
The past few weeks has been one of those times when I feel uncertain of God's plan in my life. We have been planning on selling our home here in Clearfield for sometime now, but we have to wait until next April so we don't have to pay capital gain tax. The feeling of uncertainty has rest upon us lately. We have been working hard to get out of debt and stay out of debt. It's been our summer's wish to have everything paid for. We are in discussions of selling our Truck and trailer and down grading to something more affordable to pay off my student loans. We are uncertain of where to go after selling our house.
The feelings I felt when I was pregnant with Ryker in Idaho Falls are coming back to me. The uncertainty of where to go, what is going to happen, and what's is our next chapter in this book of life. I know Heavenly Father is going to throw a curve ball at us, He always does for some reason. The things we plan for always seem to be different then His plan. I am scared, excited, and a little nervous for what's next in our PJs Adventures.
Every time I pray to see the whole picture, I only get a feeling of peace. A small voice stating, "It's all in the Lord's hands, Rest, Peace be with you." I know it's in the Lord's hands, but sometimes I don't like what's in the store for us. Heavenly Father knows me, He knows I struggle with uncertainty. But I must have to learn something because it's happened many times in our marriage. Here we go again another Leap of Faith to the unknown. Hopefully we fly instead of sink.